lol

-- i just realized i posted the most depressing thing ever.

being alone can really put on the best and even the worst in you..

:)

depression kills..

i'm so damn tired of pretending to be happy.

i wish i have the guts to tell you what i feel.

but i'm scared if you told me you don't feel the same way.

i wish i was strong enough to take the risk.

but i guess, i was afraid that i would lose the bet.

i wish i could leave you and move on.

but i guess i love you too much, it would hurt me more than it might hurt you.

i wish i could stop thinking of you.

but i guess, i wish you'd start thinking of me too.

i wish..........

i wish you'd love me too..

but i guess, i kinda wish you'd love me more than i love you...

i wish you'd choose me because i would rather die than living without you...

i wish i'm not stupid so i can just walk i way and forget you..

but i'm to dumb to even think about spending an hour without you..

you are you..

and i am me..

i just wish the time comes when you and me become one..

so i can be yours..

and you would be mine..

life on earth..

 *sigh*...

our world has undergone so many changes. well, change isn't bad. but maybe, we humans changed it TOO much. maybe if our ancestors would be reincarnated, they won't recognize it anymore. we are changing in a speed of light! first, abacus. then, computers. and now, iPhone4! it's so breathtaking. we have gone so far but many wants to go further. we have unlocked so many mysteries but many feels like it isn't enough. many are still not contented. many are still searching. many are still fighting. but with all these advancing, it feels like we're forgetting something. something important. something named earth.

we forgot earth. and now we are facing it's consequences. we are suffering. global warming, climate change, flash floods, drought; name them all and i assure you, we experience it all. all through out the world, mother earth is attacking. it is defensing herself. it's fighting back. and we are helpless.

looking back, people are destroying earth slowly. and now, people are finding who to BLAME. we are searching, debating and even fighting. we keep on finding that "someone" to blame not knowing that the answer is right in front of our noses. NO ONE wants to take responsibility on what happened. EVERYONE keeps on pointing others to blame. NO ONE  wants to accept the fact that the EACH AND EVERYONE of us made the mistake. EVERYONE keeps on making stories just for them not to be blamed. we keep on pushing the truth. we closed our hearts for the fact that WE humans are the one killing earth. each and every single one of us has his/her certain faults; no exceptions. the single candy wrapper you throw on the street is a mistake. sometimes, we don't know that the simplest thing we do can be wrong.

but it isn't to late. there is still hope. we can still stand up from our crash. there are only few steps to take:

1. ACCEPT the fact and FACE the truth. accepting the truth is the hardest part of all. we must swallow our pride. we must take responsibility. but after those things, i assure you, it would be like breathing fresh air for the first time.
2. START the change WITHIN. change must start within ourselves. not just physically, but emotionally, socially, mentally, and everything that goes with those. we must change our perspective in life. we must let go of the box that is keeping us from seeing the world in a very different but special way. how can we change the world when we can't even change ourselves, right? 
3. MAKE a MOVE. do something relevant. stand up. pick up a candy wrapper on  a street. put the dirty clothes on the laundry. stop smoking. use a bike instead of a cab. start planting trees. watch TV for only an hour. don't buy things with animal fur. recycle. simple things that can make a difference. i'm not asking you to do a program or a major project, but i am asking you to make small changes that can make a large difference. if you know it is wrong, stop doing it! it is that simple. be disciplined! you know what is right, do it! simple. MAKE A MOVE.
4. SPREAD the news. when you know that you are changed for the better, start encouraging others. let them know the truth. let them do steps 1 - 3. it is not enough that you are changed because you are not alone at earth. imagine, if everyone would pick up a candy wrapper on  a street, put the dirty clothes on the laundry, stop smoking, use a bike instead of a cab, start planting trees, limit use of electricity, then this world would be a better place!! we must ALL work. everyone must know the news. open others' eyes and help them see the world in a different and special way!
5. give HELP. if one stumbles, help. if one doesn't know where the garbage can is, help. if one is confused, help. help. help. help. help. help in every way you can because  WE ARE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER. 

ACCEPT, CHANGE, MOVE, SPREAD, HELP. this may sound simple but it is not. it is a step by step process. but i believe, with patience, determination and love for earth, we CAN do it!!

earth is a beautiful place. and earth is the only world we have. once we lose it, it is gone and we can never get it back. we cannot let such a beautiful blessing die in front of our very own eyes. let us not waste time. it is not too late to change for the betterment. STAND up and MAKE a change! there is still HOPE!

my dream.

attention:


the following pictures may stun you or may cause tingling sensation on your heart. so i would like to remind you that. Darren Criss is mine. lol.

first post..

sbe nila, ang mga nagbblog daw ay ung mga taong naghahanap ng kausap.. mga tao n nais ng atensyon..

naniniwala aq don kahit papano..

i really want to express what's on my mind and heart that's why i created my own blog. honestly, i don't care whether many people read my posts. i just want to really express what is inside me. of course, i would appreciate if people read my blog.

i want the would blog world to know who i am. i am me. my future posts reflects who i am. if you hate me, or love me, i would still be me.

eto n muna for now. hehe

----- this is me. :) and this blog is my secret haven. :)